When Fears Are Realized.....

As you all know, I am an awful pregnant woman. You can just read the previous blogs and you all know about my pregnancy with Kaylin, I just don't handle pregnancy well. It must also be said that my doctor was correct, the very first time I had a visit with him this is what he said to me: "A lot of women have blood pressure issues with their first baby but it is usually at the very end of the pregnancy right before they are due to deliver. I must warn you though that when women have the extensive problems that you had with your first, the problems tend to be worse with following pregnancies." Well as you all know there for a while my blood pressure issues had seemed to go away and he even talked about sending me back to work until last week when my BP's were crazy and they sent me to the hospital. Well I had a doctors appointment today and was feeling great, but the appointment did not go so well. My BP was 139/108, it had also been high the majority of the day at home. This startled the doctor he didn't really know what to say so he checked Lauren's heart beat had me lay down and checked my BP again (it was 144/90) and he said that he had to think about what to do next and left the room. When he came back he said that we can't increase the medication because I am already maxed out, so what we will be doing is having weekly visits. We will be doing more extensive sonograms where they will be looking more closely at the baby's growth, the fluid surrounding her and some other things as well. This is all stuff that I did with Kaylin only it was with a specialist, fortunately I don't have to go to the specialist it is something that Dr. Atkins feels comfortable handling. I also have to keep a close eye on my blood pressures at home and any kind of other side effects that may come along with it such as headaches that don't go away, swelling, dizzy spells, blurry vision and seeing spots. If I have any of these with blood pressures that are 160's/110's and they aren't going down, I have to call the doctor immediately. So my next appointment is Monday July 28th.

Now throughout this entire pregnancy my biggest fear was that I wouldn't make it to 37 weeks (which is considered full term). I had Kaylin at 38 weeks and she was 7lbs, 10 oz so I figure is I can at least make it to 37 weeks the baby would be between 5-8 lbs (depending on how fast she is gaining weight). Well, today my fears were realized. Since I have had blood pressure issues they will be doing another c-section b/c it is too dangerous for me and the baby to try to do a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean), so they scheduled my c-section today which will be September 2, I will only be 36 weeks which means the baby will be one week premature. The really scary part though is that Dr. Atkins doesn't think that I will make it to the September 2nd date, he said today that he thinks that we will have to deliver even earlier. Please pray for this baby, I want her to be healthy and I don't want her to have to go to the NICU. My prayer is that we will make it to the September 2nd date.